updated 07/29/2013 AT 3:00 PM ET
•originally published 07/29/2013 AT 5:30 PM ET
Theories abound about what happened between Desiree Hartsock and her remaining trio of suitors during The Bachelorette finale, which is so dramatic that it had to be broken into two parts.
While she wouldn’t even give us a hint about the tear-inducing twist when PEOPLE sat down with her exclusively at the Men Tell All taping, the L.A. resident and bridal stylist did dish on plenty of other topics.
How’d it feel to be reunited with many of the men you sent packing?
Because I’ve been on the other side and know how this day felt for me when I got to talk to Sean, I feel closure for them more than for me. Especially for Zak. When I sent him home, he wasn’t ready for it, and he probably went home shocked and hurt. I knew that there would be more I’d need to address now that he’s had a few months to think about it. I was glad I was able to and glad that he was able to express his feelings as well.
Speaking of Zak, he said you left him in a "very dark place" regarding love.
I didn’t get to see any of the taping other than when I was out there so I don’t know exactly what was said. But Zak being in a dark place is very hard to hear because that’s never what I wanted for any of the guys. I didn’t want to hurt them.
I was hoping they’d be able to see that there were other relationships that were progressing faster or that some people were overall a better fit for me. I was hoping that in watching the show air maybe they would learn more about why I made the decisions I did. I always tried to make the best decisions for me and to accomplish what I wanted out of the show because I was here looking for love.
He left the show in the same runner-up slot as you, so maybe he will get to be the new Bachelor. Would he make a good one?
The slot worked out for me. He’d be the best. He’s fun. He’s thoughtful and he’s ready [to fall in love and get married], which is key.
And he’s very willing to strip down.
There you go. We definitely need a Bachelor who is willing to get naked to find love!
Looking back, is there anything you wish you would have done differently or someone you wished you’d kept longer?
Not really, because from day one I was trying to take each moment and each day as they happened and I tried to step away from the fantasy of the show to figure out who I could see myself with after the show was over; who would fit best in the life I want. The only goal I had coming in was to make my own decisions and not get influenced by the fancy dates, other guys or even producers. And I am still confident in all the decisions I made.