updated 02/07/2013 AT 8:00 PM ET
•originally published 02/08/2013 AT 8:15 AM ET
The Los Angeles ad executive assured reporters that, despite a flood of tears, she harbors no ill will toward Lowe and is still ready to find her soulmate.
Did you have any inkling that week would be the end of your journey?
I didn’t expect to go home. I was caught off guard. I had every intention of taking him home to Colorado and introducing him to my family. However, the week before in Montana, Sean said that he had taken a step back with a few girls. There was a part of me deep down that worried I might be one.
Did showing baby photos and talking families scare him off?
I don’t think it would have changed Sean’s mind whether I showed him the photos on night one or in the fantasy suite. He knew how he felt about me and the others. The photos probably made him realize he needed to be honest sooner rather than later.
You two seemed to spark on the first date.
Getting the first one-on-one date – as magical as it was – was a curse. We had an amazing connection right off the bat and then I had to sit back and wait for him to develop relationships with the other women … It became more and more difficult to sustain a connection. Feelings fizzle and it was very sad and confusing.