updated 12/06/2011 AT 10:00 AM ET
•originally published 12/06/2011 AT 2:00 PM ET
All hell broke loose on Monday’s episode of The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills during a wine tasting at a fabulous Malibu beach house.
With embattled newbie Brandi Glanville playing hostess, Camille Grammer and Taylor Armstrong came face to face after the tea party, where Camille exposed Taylor’s abusive relationship with estranged husband Russell, who committed suicide in August.
Though they tried to avoid each other, as the wine flowed Camille’s friend Dedra confronted Taylor for ignoring Camille’s apologies and not being a friend. Emotions were high and the confrontation quickly turned into an out-of-control screaming match. (Watch the clip above.)
So why did Taylor become so unhinged? She explained later Monday night on Andy Cohen’s Bravo talk show, Watch What Happens Live, where she also spoke about her new book and offered her support for Kim Richards, who recently entered rehab.
“I was a little drunk, absolutely, and a little crazy,” Taylor told Andy. “I was dealing with so much and my biggest fears were unraveling. For me it was as though I lived my life for quite a long time with a boiling pot that I was holding the lid on top of, and it was starting to bubble over and there was nothing more I could do and I was losing my mind.”
Taylor explained that she was upset that her abusive relationship, which she had divulged to her costars off camera, had become a plotline on the show.
“Admitting that I was being abused on national television was a step that I never though any of my friends would take,” she said. “I was so stunned and I felt so betrayed that I couldn’t get past it. And I was scared.”
Having to relive that night in Malibu, which ended with Brandi kicking Taylor out of the party, hasn’t been easy for Taylor.
“It’s been horrifying to watch. I really see a woman who was out of control, a woman who was terrified, somebody who was clearly about to go off the deep end,” she said. “I’m just thankful to be here with my daughter and that I’m getting healthier every day.”
“I was a train wreck,” she added later. “I was on the Taylor Train and then it had a wreck. It was bad.”