updated 06/07/2011 AT 7:00 AM ET
•originally published 06/07/2011 AT 8:15 AM ET
I could probably go on for hours, writing about all the emotions I felt while watching the third episode of The Bachelorette.
I had feelings of nostalgia, excitement, hurt, betrayal and embarrassment. Stepping aside from the fact that I was visibly emotional throughout the episode, I could not stop watching. I was glued to the screen and even though I lived it, I quickly learned that I did not know many things that were being said when I wasn’t around. As I watched, I found myself both laughing and crying.
At the cocktail party last week, you heard Ben C. tell me that if there was ever a dance date happening again, he’d love to be a part of it. I was so excited knowing that I had a flash mob date coming up, and Ben C. was the perfect guy for that date. From the first night I met Ben, I loved his energy and intelligence, so I was happy to see such a fun, carefree side to him as well. What a great sport Ben was! I put him on the spot by having to dance in the middle of the Americana at Brand mall, but he showed unwavering focus to do the moves correctly despite all the distractions around him.
Having Far East Movement perform while we had our first kiss was pretty memorable, too!