updated 11/01/2010 AT 1:00 PM ET
•originally published 11/01/2010 AT 2:20 PM ET
Ricky Martin put on a brave face last March when he revealed to the world that he is gay.
But behind the scenes the singer was caught up in a maelstrom of emotion, he tells Oprah Winfrey in an interview airing on her show Tuesday. On the day he sent out an e-mail announcing, “I am proud to say that I am a fortunate homosexual man,” Martin says he first felt “numb” and then “relieved.”
Then, he said, the magnitude of what he’d done hit him.